I wrote this one week ago on Saturday, October 8, 2016. I've debated posting it due to how personal it is, but I feel that this needs to be said. It is purposefully vague, and I pray that you approach this without judgement but with an open mind Today, I lost hope. Today, I was again disappointed in how things were handled. I lost faith in adults and I lost faith in teens. I like to use this blog to inspire and help other people, but sometimes it needs to be used so I can have a voice. When I was twelve one of my best friends started to isolate me. She ignored me for an issue that I didn't even realize hurt her. I came running to her apologizing until she took me back, we became friends again quickly and all was well. Until it wasn't again, and she did the same thing to me again, and again. Finally I had had enough. We didn't speak for a year and a half. That was over four years ago . Since then, I surrounded myself with friends that don't toy with me, and I was able to trust that people wouldn't abandon me. Except, I also learned to detach myself from stressful situations and never truly speak my mind. It's because of the unhealthy relationship and the detachment habits, that I've been able to handle being harassed by adults and students for the past two years and deny it the whole time. Two nights ago, I stood up for myself and my family in front of a man who has the authority to put an end to the abuse. What I find a little twisted though is that I didn't do it for me. I didn't stand up to him, for myself. I did it because it was destroying my family. For the past two months, I've had to watch my parents argue over it. My dad says that it'll make me stronger and my mom says that it isn't right and I shouldn't have to put up with it. I could handle it, my family couldn't. I've had to watch my mom's friends turn on her, sit by while she defended what was right, and witness people screaming at her in person and on social media because she dared to call it as it is. So what do I do? What does anyone do when they're stuck in a situation where the leaders are corrupt and they cause the followers to turn on each other. What does a ship do when their fleet is sinking each other? Do you bail because it's morally unjust? Do you tough it out and be shunned for challenging the system? What would you do? Maybe there's no right answer, which would mean there's no wrong answer. Maybe there's no right way to handle abuse, but that doesn't mean that abuse is right. It is inexcusable.
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Don't care
10/15/2016 12:29:33 pm
Shut up
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Destany
10/15/2016 02:14:50 pm
I love this❤️
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