Sometimes I just get so frustrated with myself and life. I want to write in a way that makes people feel something. I want to change the world for Christ. I want my voice to be heard and to make a difference. But that's not how life works sometimes. I'm sixteen, I have two blogs, one of which has over seven thousand followers. Those are everyday humans like you and me, who have taken the time out of their day to hit the follow button because Erika and I have something to give them. So it frustrates me when I can't write, when I don't know what to say or how to say it, when there's just this wrench in my gut that won't go away, and I don't know how to articulate the words in a way that clearly depicts what I want to say. It's times like these where I know I need to trust God. He obviously has given me this desire and ability for a reason and I have to trust that He believes I am capable of doing so successfully. It's not really a popular or well accepted aspiration to be a journalist. I mean who even reads magazines or newspapers today anyways, right? How can I make a living off of doing something so superficial, something any old bloke could do? But what if it wasn't superficial. What if I was able to speak out about issues that are haunting people, and do so in a way that helps them. What if I was able to confidently and successfully write about what is important to me? What if the way I ordered my words, I was able to lead one person to Christ. What if by living our lives with passion for Christ and passion for positive change, we were actually able to see that change happen? Wouldn't that make it all worth it?
So how do you know that you are doing what God created you to do? I honestly don't know. I think we are supposed to live life as though we have a blindfold over our eyes and God is holding our hand guiding us. I think it's about trusting that He knows what He's doing, even if we don't. Life isn't supposed to be stressful and exhausting, it's supposed to be about passion and purpose. So live your life with a passion for God's purpose, because He has one. He's holding us in His hands not so He can drop us, but so we don't fall. I think if we live our lives for Christ, we have to believe that He will show us where to go from there.
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Kathy Starr
11/7/2018 10:08:08 am
Keep on writing, Libby. You are a light in the darkness!!
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