You see the moment I allowed my soul the freedom to be loved on, and to be relieved from the hurt that was repressing it, I was free. I allowed God to work in my life and He renewed my soul. The human soul is only as valuable as how we nourish it. If we take care of it and surround ourselves with people who want to see us succeed and care about us, it is like we are feeding our soul. This can also be done by doing things like challenging ourselves, setting healthy goals, and even allowing ourselves to be vulnerable with other souls.
For example, I was was a fearless child growing up. I knew who I was, I knew I was smart and I was okay with making a fool out of myself to have fun. Then middle school hit: all of a sudden the parts of me that I was okay with, were suddenly not okay. I wasn't skinny enough, I didn't have Uggs, I didn't wear makeup, etc. I didn't take the time to counteract the negativity I was being fed, with truth and love. So my soul's health took a blow. I became afraid and isolated. I was terrified of getting hurt and deprived my soul of vulnerability. Then going on into high school when I felt rejection by boys, coaches, and friends, I didn't have a healthy way of handling my emotions. I spent most of Freshman year locked in my room watching Netflix. I gained weight, felt lonely, and had a very low self esteem. My soul was in pieces and nobody knew, I went to counseling and no one knew, because I was embarrassed of being real and honest. I can recall a conversation I had with my friends one day and I said, "Sometimes it's better to hurt others so you don't get hurt," Looking back I knew why I said that and the place I was coming from, but it wasn't right. The girl that said that was coming from a very broken place. So how did my soul get refurbished? How did I get back on my feet again? Well first, I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I picked up a new sport and threw myself into it: I thrived on seeing myself improve from week to week, knowing I was accomplishing something. Next, I took my faith more seriously. I allowed people in and I let them invest in me. I let go of my life and gave it to God. You see the moment I allowed my soul the freedom to be loved on, and to be relieved from the hurt I was repressing it, I was free. I allowed God to work in my life and He renewed my soul. Our souls need to be cared for just like a garden does: with water, soil, and sunlight the garden can grow and flourish. Similarly, the human soul needs the freedom to do three things in order to thrive: to be real & vulnerable, to be loved on by other souls, and to be covered by God's forgiveness and grace. The lack of any of those three will lead to a human soul deprived of its full potential.
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Brenda
10/28/2017 09:52:39 am
Proud if you for being so real and authentic! I know these truths will help someone else struggling as well! Keep on caring for you soul and never forget how loved you are!
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